Poem 9

I am texting you and
I feel loved but I
Know that once I
Close my eyes and
Fall asleep, I will
Dream a bad dream
And wake up lonely again.
You tell me to sleep
If I am tired.
But, you do not understand
I feel terrible when I
Wake up because I
Never get to have a
Decent conversation with you
For hours.
So when I wake up
The next morning
I will look at my pillow
Which was you
In my mind, and I will
Feel lonely. Then I will
Get out of bed and
Get ready for my day.
What am I getting ready for?
I only want to get ready in the morning
For you.
I will walk outside in
The cold and wait for
My bus to come and on
The bus I will sit there
Alone, and think about
You. I will go to school
And spend the day
Getting scolded,
Counselor
Anxiety attacks
People
Stress
Work
Failure
Depression
Loneliness
Fear
Then I am home
And I get yelled at
A little more at home.
And so I sit in my room
Alone again
And I wait for a
Text from you but you
Usually nap or something
After school so I wait
A few hours and then you
Reply late at night again and
Then I unintentionally fall asleep.
Then the next morning it starts
All over again.
And it will be like this today
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